WHY IT HAPPENS TO ME
Long ago there was a group called SCRAPPERS in Bikaner Boys School (class 11th and 12th).
That group had six members i.e. Dhairya,Ankur,Dhruvendra,Rajesh,Sanjay and Me. We 6 shared some super beautiful memories together. Memories of Playing cricket at dhairya's place, Eating hell lot of samosa's in school, leg pulling of each and everyone in the class, Birthday party at CHANKYA, Making a model of BANK in projects, Laughing at Dhruvendra when he was told to read something during the class of english, The prank with Sanjay, Financing done by Ankur everytime, doing almost all the course during exams on the PHONE itself. Everything was going good, smooth and without speed breakers ....but only till school time.
By the time when we all were separated in different colleges (Dhairya, Sanjay and Dhruv in ECB , Rajesh went to delhi for his CA and Ankur was here doing Bcom with CA) the scene of misunderstandings started.
I was the culprit somewhere because i didn't give proper time to them when i was in college because of being so friendly with others i forgot that there were some people who need more importance and the worst thing that could happen to me was that, They first deleted me from their list without even sorting out the matter and i felt so bad and never talked to them.
Though Situations went easy as the time passed on and we came in contact again (long story) minus the feel and zeal and friendlyness. This time i was more of "JUST FRIEND".
So, i wrote one poem "WHY IT HAPPENS TO ME" 2 years back after all this thing happened. Actually i dont know that is it seriously a poem or what, because i wrote what i felt.
Why does it happen to me
why i'm not able to...
Not able to fulfill expectations.
Expectation what others expecting
Expectation of daily tring tring
Expectation of Inter-mingling
I dont know why, but...
It Does Happen to Me.
Why does it happen to me
why i'm not able to...
Not able to know what they want.
What they want from me
What are their feelings for me
What do they care for me
I was the stupid joker
was lost somewhere
SCRAPPERS nowhere
I dont know why, but...
It Does Happen to Me.
Why does it happen to me
why They're not able to...
not able to understand.
The love for them
The care for them
desire to meet them
is not yet lost
loosing them paid much cost
Nothing to say "I do worry"
Nothing to say " I am sorry"
they've left me alone
I dont know why, but...
IT DOES AND
IT HAS HAPPENED TO ME.
There has always been a tragedy in my life,
the person with whom i get so close he/she will surely have a fight and misunderstandings.So friends please avoid being so close to me or i'll loose you which i never want to do.
3 comments:
u have written what i wud call is " a slap of lyf " wen lyf hits us so hard dat we r not d one we were earlier..may be it was ur fault at some point but it cudnt be so big dat it cudnt be sorted or forgiven,, " u didnt left dem, dey left u " i know m noone to speak on dis but as i was reading i cud connect wid d lines i myself had been a reason for misunderstndns dnt know y it hapnd but yes it has hapend wid me, (ur lines lolz)...i actually dnt knw d reasons behind , y it hapns , n wt cud b d solution, but i jst know 1 thng..(ur true frnds r those who wont leave u evn if u leave dem, he/she wud accept u d way u r )...keep d faith alive...n keep writing such stuff...god bless
suck it up boy!!coz in life we have to move on!!
if it's a true friendship it would come back to you!
charu...thnks yr...nicely commented n explained .. understood wat u said n agreed to d fullest..
and yes it was a slap of lyf for me...and i learned it so much frm dat..
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