!! MIXED FEELINGS !!

MIXED FEELINGS

Finally I am working. Working as an employee of ING VYSYA BANK as a Corporate Sales Manager- ASPIRA. ( ASPIRA is our product name)

This is my first job and the moment I got selected, when they said,”Next who got selected is – Abhishek Bothra” and I was the happiest person on this earth. GD was good, Interview was good, I was confident and I was ready to enter the corporate and deliver the efforts.

To be honest I never wanted to be in banking industry because I knew that the work here is very monotonous and I can finally feel the same feel which I felt earlier. Though my profile is a bit interesting; interesting because I am suppose to roam around in market and hunt for the clients. As the quote says, “We are the hunters and service people are farmers”.

But after working here for two months, one of training and another On The Job, I am bored. Bored of whatever I am doing. I can call it either De-motivation or lack of concentration. I think of something else, I think of something which I could do or could have done. Something that interests me but this really doesn’t work in the practical life because a normal human being has so many responsibilities because of which he/she can always not do what he/she thinks of doing. So, same is the case with me.

Here in bank my profile is challenging as compared to other profile but getting the fresh leads from market and cracking the same for accounts is even a tougher task to do.

I am paid well which is luring me to stay and work. Another reason would be my parents who are happier than ever. So I am all confused.

I know what I have to do here but I don’t want to do, I understand my work culture here which I never wanted to understand, I am giving my 100% and putting all the efforts which I never thought of putting.

I guess either I need some time or I have less time to decide what to do, where to go and how to tackle the situation. The more proactive I will be, the more benefit it will generate for me. Let’s see what happens and where I take myself considering all the circumstances.  

-Abhishek Bothra